This week~

My mind is just blank this week. haha.

Go Go Power Rangers! =D

Contemplation~

Hey guys.

Ever wonder what to contemplate about? Everyone has something they have to contemplate about. There are many things that bring linens of strings together that makes us who we are. Although some people may not have much to think about, it is balanced when someone else has more to think than that of another who has to think less about. Much of our world is comprised like that. Isn't that a surprise? I'm especially surprised that there are many who have good contemplations, like thinking about a loved one, or bad contemplations, like worrying about someone else.

It is true, I have not posted in a very long time. I have been quite busy myself, and also have much to contemplate about. Though some people criticize me for having too much to think about, I see it as something that only I can even do. Saving people from their burdens has always been something I wanted to do. It was not something I did not want to see happen. Fate brought me to this day to make me have to do what I have to do. Saving people from their burdens is all that I can do. I miss having some form of freedom, although it is okay. There is not one moment I regret of this. It is like having the Gracefulness of remembering the good times, and also the bad. I'm always here to save people the trouble of having a burden. I've always been there to help in many ways possible. This is where I get criticized.

People don't want help, even though they know they do. Some people do accept it, but they do not acknowledge the help that is given from a lover to a lover, or a friend to a friend, and even sometimes a friend to a foe. I too have also have to give help when someone needs it. I care for them as if they are my brother or sister, or some (or one for that matter) that means more to me than my feelings should go. Emotions do not always get to me, but when it is someone I absolutely care about, its hopeless. Nothing would really stop me, but I can still be trumped. The fact that this one person whom I care about so much, and even though she means to me more than a friend, I still have to help her as if she is a friend. I don't have a reason to not help her, I do not have a reason to help her more than a friend. I guess you can say I'm not exactly the kind of guy that is meant to be liked or loved, but I guess I am just there. Though I do wish for something to happen with her, it turns out it will not happen. So I have to just help her as a friend, and help with all her stress. I'm not mad or sad or anything, though there is some figment of a disappointment from my Id, my Super Ego still tells me to cheer up.

I hope you guys learn something from this post, but I do hope you guys are enjoying my blog.

And to you readers of the first chapter of my story, I don't think I will be able to write much for a while. I'm not gonna really post anymore. It's been too much of a hassle really, but sorry though. I'm just going to post some of the things that I contemplate from day to day, and w.e I feel like letting out ya know? Well I hope you all have a good time where ever you guys my be.

With Love,

Son Hyong Kim aka Joey

Hey everyone.

How was your winter break? Hope you guys enjoyed it well. Well now that Hollywood Bowl is finally coming up soon. (May 9th to be exact) Lets hope that So Nyuh Shi Dae does well. Sometimes there are struggles that you are going through now, like with school and work and university, but we still must keep working and try our best to get through it. There will be many obstacles, but that is a part of life. Understand that sometimes there are times when there is probably too much pressure that is brought up and is place on your backs as heavy weights. Try your best everyone to struggle through everything.

So I haven't been really working on my story, but I have been lazy, so I guess its just a blog now. Sorry everyone. I too have been going through many struggles with the environment around me and also mentally. Its sad I have a lot of things to think about when I should not really be having much thought about anything. I know what I'm doing is probably venting out all my thoughts that give me struggles, its just that I probably can't keep it in me no longer. Not only is the outside world that is out of my house a struggle, but my mind is a struggle too. I've been exposed to lots of things lately that I had to figure out on my own, and have to act right accordingly to that manner, but its too much. Its just too much for my own mentality to even handle. Sometimes I feel like I hold too much things that are buried beneath my unconscious mind and it just wants to leak out and explode! I don't understand what to really do anymore. I'll just have to figure it out.

Hope you enjoyed a bunch of ranting and all this other crap.

-J. L. Nguyen

"Suddenly, I'm not half the man I used to be, the shadow hanging over me [...] Now I need a place to hide away. Oh I believe, in yesterday..."

-Lyrics from the song Yesterday (Beatles)

First Post of the Year~~

Well. This is my first post of the year. Lets hope that I continue with this blog. I've disappeared for quite a bit, and Its because of 1. Sick. 2. Busy, and 3. Boredom. Haha. Sometimes I guess I just like to stray away and do stuff on my own. Its quite alright actually.

Well I hope you guys have a New Year! Live it to the fullest!

A brief short message.

-Joe

Simple... Right?

There are many simple things in life. I don't know much about this part, but I can pretty much say that there are lots of simple things. Like happiness is simple. Though I'm starting to believe that the simple things are slowly fading away. I'm kind of sad to see that happening, but I guess it is inevitable.

Aside from the simple things in life, I miss a lot of things now a days. Although Christmas is coming up, I miss a few people.

I miss my aunt, who died of cancer. (May God keep her in Heaven and in peace)

I miss my uncle, whom I never got to spend a Christmas with. He died too early for me to spend Christmas with him T-T

Anyways, I do miss a certain someone, but I'm not at liberty to say who.

I have conquered many difficulties that I have gone through, but I guess I haven't gone through enough. Maybe I should consider a new hobby. Its been a while since I have posted. I've been too busy with finals, so sorry ^^;;

keke I hope you guys have a good Christmas :) And a Haaaaaaaappy New Year! ~

Pretty short message today folks :( Joe out!

Like a water flowing in the river...

Interesting sentence don't ya think? I dunno why I chose this for this post. I'm not even sure for myself. Maybe there is some meaning to it that I do not know about? Like a water flowing in the river... Its interesting how there can be so much meaning towards that. A lot of things can be into good context and bad ones.

So for now, lets add in something to complete it.

"Like a water flowing in the river, Love too is a simple flowing of a desire to be one with your special someone."

In this case, using love as a comparison to this, its interesting how it makes sense o.o. Lol. I actually am kind of surprised! I made a quote :) *rejoice*

We don't recognize love enough to know about the real meaning of it. It is seemingly true that there are more times when people just lust over someone they like. So, doesn't it seem that we just lust more than we love? How come we can't realize who we really are looking for? Love can be simple or complicated.

I for one, am in a complicated love. Though I'm not sure if I should explain myself. Sometimes, I wonder about this. It always seems so hard for me to comprehend at some point. the turning point is scary though. It can determine what may or may not work out. Sometimes, I wish it could work out for me. I really do like this girl. Please God...

Sometimes, Its all I would ever had wanted to ask, But for now, I guess I can just keep it to myself.

Logging out. Have fun everyone.

-Joe

Chapter 1- One Fine Morning...

Beep... Beep... Beep... I turn off my alarm as I continue sleeping. About half an hour later, I heard a voice I've heard before, and as it turns out, it was Changmin that woke me up. When I woke up, Changmin said to me, "You have a visitor today bud. And a pretty one too." He gave me a wink as a sign I really should wake up. I woke up and ran off to the shower, a quick rinse and quick brushing of teeth, and I was clean. I walked down the stairs and I saw it was Han Seungyeon.

I waved hello to her and she laughed and waved back. She broke the silence and said, "Song Hyong Kim, what's up? cat got your tongue?" I looked down on the table and wrote a note to her. She read it out loud. "I'm tired what do you expect? My voice sounds tired in the morning. I missed you though. How was your trip? Well to answer your question, it was fun and educational little brother, and I also met a boy." I looked at Changmin and we both laughed. Han Seungyeon stood up and took a feather duster and pointed toward us both and said, "I'm serious! I think he is the one!" I answered her back, in my tired voice, "You say that to every boy you meet. I would be surprised if he actually is the one."

The doorbell rang, and when I opened the door, no one was there. I walked outside and looked behind the bush and saw the three troublemakers, Taemin, Minho, and Onew. I grabbed hold of their necks and took them inside and said, "So what brings you troublemakers on this fine morning?" The three boys snickered, and then Onew said, "Yah Song Hyong Kim ahjussi! How could you call us that? We're your nephews, and you treat us like hoodlums." I laughed and toldthe boys, "You guys are what? Fifteen to seventeen years old? You guys should respect me. Wheres your sister anyways?" Minho stood up formally and said, "She's at a tennis tournament right now. Nicole is probably with her boyfriend, Hyun-joong." I answered to Minho, "Who's this boy? and Minho, you keep forgetting I'm your youngest uncle in the family, I don't care if you aren't formal with me. That only applies to Onew. You and Taemin are okay." I looked at Onew, and Onew said, "But I hang out with you more often than my brothers or sisters. You pretty much treat me the best." And he continued to grin at me, and I said to the whole group, "Well You guys take now. I'm going to meet up with someone."

"Who's this girl?" Changmin asked. I explained to him that it was just a friend. Han Seungyeon said, "It probably is a girl. You know how big of a stud he is." It to started to become the truth even though it wasn't when Onew added, "I bet its that girl from the other neighborhood Han Seungyeon ahjumma." Han Seungyeon took Onew's ear and said to him about what happened the last time he called her an ahjumma, which you don't to know about. I decided to quietly leave while all this ruckus was going on.

I arrived to the coffee shop and boy is it crowded. It was difficult trying to get the line to order a cup of coffee and some coffee cake. As I sat outside, I waited for the person to arrive. I wondered who the person was when mother said it was someone from high school that moved here recently. As I take a sip of my mocha, I see the person come closer to closer and asked me, "Excuse me, are you Song Hyong Kim?" I was shocked to find out it was that person.

Author's Note-
I was worried about this chapter sincei it was the introduction. There is gonna be more, but if I drop out a bunch of people all in one chapter, it would be weird o.o Ch.2 is currently 10% done, so expect it here in about a week and a half. Enjoy reading!
-Joe