Contemplation~

Hey guys.

Ever wonder what to contemplate about? Everyone has something they have to contemplate about. There are many things that bring linens of strings together that makes us who we are. Although some people may not have much to think about, it is balanced when someone else has more to think than that of another who has to think less about. Much of our world is comprised like that. Isn't that a surprise? I'm especially surprised that there are many who have good contemplations, like thinking about a loved one, or bad contemplations, like worrying about someone else.

It is true, I have not posted in a very long time. I have been quite busy myself, and also have much to contemplate about. Though some people criticize me for having too much to think about, I see it as something that only I can even do. Saving people from their burdens has always been something I wanted to do. It was not something I did not want to see happen. Fate brought me to this day to make me have to do what I have to do. Saving people from their burdens is all that I can do. I miss having some form of freedom, although it is okay. There is not one moment I regret of this. It is like having the Gracefulness of remembering the good times, and also the bad. I'm always here to save people the trouble of having a burden. I've always been there to help in many ways possible. This is where I get criticized.

People don't want help, even though they know they do. Some people do accept it, but they do not acknowledge the help that is given from a lover to a lover, or a friend to a friend, and even sometimes a friend to a foe. I too have also have to give help when someone needs it. I care for them as if they are my brother or sister, or some (or one for that matter) that means more to me than my feelings should go. Emotions do not always get to me, but when it is someone I absolutely care about, its hopeless. Nothing would really stop me, but I can still be trumped. The fact that this one person whom I care about so much, and even though she means to me more than a friend, I still have to help her as if she is a friend. I don't have a reason to not help her, I do not have a reason to help her more than a friend. I guess you can say I'm not exactly the kind of guy that is meant to be liked or loved, but I guess I am just there. Though I do wish for something to happen with her, it turns out it will not happen. So I have to just help her as a friend, and help with all her stress. I'm not mad or sad or anything, though there is some figment of a disappointment from my Id, my Super Ego still tells me to cheer up.

I hope you guys learn something from this post, but I do hope you guys are enjoying my blog.

And to you readers of the first chapter of my story, I don't think I will be able to write much for a while. I'm not gonna really post anymore. It's been too much of a hassle really, but sorry though. I'm just going to post some of the things that I contemplate from day to day, and w.e I feel like letting out ya know? Well I hope you all have a good time where ever you guys my be.

With Love,

Son Hyong Kim aka Joey